My name is Annie. I am a compulsive overeater.
I meant to post this last night, but I didn’t get a chance to type it. I had an appointment at the University of Michigan bariatric clinic yesterday. What I am going to share with you now is what I wrote in my journal before, during, and after the meeting.
Info meeting today. Hubby took the afternoon off to come along with me. I am nervous and kind of giddy all at once. There are about a dozen others here. Some really don’t look like they need to lose any weight. Maybe they are the support people for the others. Either that or they hide the excess weight rather well!
One woman caught my eye right away. She is wearing a pink Henley. Her hair is short and red, and she has on a pair of glasses with a similar frame to mine. She looks a lot like I think I must look. I wonder if she has the same kind of thoughts that I do. I think we are the two biggest females in the room. Oh how nice it would be to walk into a room and not feel like the biggest girl there!
Not that I always feel like the biggest gal in the room. Sometimes I feel like the biggest person in the room. Every now and again, I think I could be in a room full of elephants and still be the largest creature there.
I came into this meeting leaning toward the lap band. Now, though, I am wonder if gastric bypass would be a better option for me. According to the stats Dr. Birkmeyer gave, the band would not allow me to lose the amount of weight I want to lose. And he said that regardless of the procedure, “bigger patients” will still have excess amounts of skin that just sort of hang off the body. The sleeve gastrectomy— something that I was dead set against before—almost sounds like the best option for me. But I must say I am a bit nervous about telling my hubby that. It would mean more of a hospital stay and a slightly longer recovery time than the band. Is that going to be a big problem for him?
Still, I have to tell him. I have to talk to him about all that I am feeling about this. And I need to do what is best for ME—I need to find the option that will best help me to reach my goals. I don’t want to inconvenience him with this, but if I am going to take this step, I need to be sure I am stepping in the right direction to conquer my weight and eating issues.