Hello. My name is Annie Nonymous. I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend. My titles also include writer, reader, scrapbooker, Christ-follower, and overeater. Yes, I eat too much. Not consciously. Not because I am hungry. But because I can’t help myself.
My name is Annie, and I am a compulsive overeater.
The first time I said those words in an Overeaters Anonymous meeting, I cried. It probably took me about a month of meetings before I could saw it. Facing the fact that I am an overeater meant facing the “junk” I’d been trying to hide with food. Taking a good, hard look at myself and my life was not an easy thing. A good thing, of that I am sure. But it is so not easy.
For years, I’ve heard about Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous. I never thought that I would need a 12-step program. But nothing else works. Diets work for a while. Then depression hits or I see that one food that I can’t resist, and I gain back every little bit that I have lost. Plus a little extra. OK, so usually it is plus A LOT. I decided to see if there was a local OA chapter that I could join, not sure if I wanted to really do it or not.
What I’ve discovered is a program not focused so much on weight loss, but focused on overcoming my addiction to food. The Program talks a lot about developing a dependence on God. If I can get spiritually healthy and physically healthy at the same time…. Well, let’s just say that sure made this program more attractive to me.
I still have a lot to learn. Like taking this Program seriously. I can’t just go to meetings. I have to work through the reading material and really work the program in my life. That is the reason for this blog—it gives me a place to write about the changes I am making in my life. I think it will help me to see my progress in black and white (or whatever color I decide to make the print and background!). If it helps others as well, that’s just bonus.