Hello.  My name is Annie Nonymous.  I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend.  My titles also include writer, reader, scrapbooker, Christ-follower, and overeater.  Yes, I eat too much.  Not consciously.  Not because I am hungry.  But because I can’t help myself.

My name is Annie, and I am a compulsive overeater. 

The first time I said those words in an Overeaters Anonymous meeting, I cried.  It probably took me about a month of meetings before I could saw it.  Facing the fact that I am an overeater meant facing the “junk” I’d been trying to hide with food.  Taking a good, hard look at myself and my life was not an easy thing.  A good thing, of that I am sure.  But it is so not easy.

For years, I’ve heard about Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous.  I never thought that I would need a 12-step program.  But nothing else works.  Diets work for a while.  Then depression hits or I see that one food that I can’t resist, and I gain back every little bit that I have lost.  Plus a little extra.  OK, so usually it is plus A LOT.  I decided to see if there was a local OA chapter that I could join, not sure if I wanted to really do it or not.

What I’ve discovered is a program not focused so much on weight loss, but focused on overcoming my addiction to food.  The Program talks a lot about developing a dependence on God.  If I can get spiritually healthy and physically healthy at the same time….  Well, let’s just say that sure made this program more attractive to me.

I still have a lot to learn.  Like taking this Program seriously.  I can’t just go to meetings.  I have to work through the reading material and really work the program in my life.  That is the reason for this blog—it gives me a place to write about the changes I am making in my life.  I think it will help me to see my progress in black and white (or whatever color I decide to make the print and background!).  If it helps others as well, that’s just bonus.

3 responses »

  1. Love you blog, Annie! Thanks for being so open about your struggles. I pray that the program works for you and you find some peace about your eating habits.

    Lynn

  2. Hi Annie,

    Thank you for your honesty in your blog. I am also an overeater and it has gotten much worse over the past 3 months. I also suffer (although i’ve never been to a doctor or diagnosed with this) from bulemia and anorexia at different times in my life. For example, over the past summer I did not eat much, maybe 400 calories a day, and I lost 4olbs. I got so many compliments and since then I have been obsessed with losing more weight. However, since then I’ve gained 10 lbs back from overeatting. It causes me a lot of pain and guilt so I will over-exercise to the point of running 11 miles and ending hours at the gym. My body is tired and I am constantly bloated and uncomfortable from the extremes I put my body through. Sometimes I purge after a binge, but not always. I feel lost and incredibly sad. I live in a small area and there is no OA that I know of. No one knows about my eating disorders, not my family, or my boyfriend whom I’ve lived with for 2 years. I am ashamed and afraid to say it out loud and for anyone to know my secret. I dont know what to do because I feel the disease taking control of my life. I don’t even feel like the same person anymore. My biggest fear is gaining weight, as selfish as that sounds, it’s the truth. I’m so lost and I don’t know what to do. After a weeks binge I prayed for help and started searching blogs for help. That’s when I found yours. It brings me comfort to know that I’m not alone, but i’m still afraid that I’ll never tackle my disease.

    nn

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